Personal Confession

On the first day of the week, we were told that this week was for each of us, personally. We each were called to literally give up all of self - our deep cares, our pressing, killing burdens, empty generic talk and our self-righteous and religious pride – to Jesus. We were reminded that faith was all we needed to believe and were encouraged to take Jesus at His Word. Upfront, we were told that only when we trust our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ, implicitly, will we be able to receive and know guaranteed, promised changes in our lives. How true is this for you?

On this final day, as promised, I now share what I was shown about myself, which totally knocked me off every pedestal on which I had myself, regardless of how low that rising might have been. This living, present, continuing image of me, totally cancelled all in me, for I never ever saw how utterly deceived I had been, living in a fool’s paradise.

I, like most believers, have accepted the prayer which Jesus taught, affectionately known as the Family Prayer, or the Lord’s Prayer. I pray to our Father that His Kingdom will come on earth, just as it is in heaven. Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Matthew 6: 10

One of the hallmarks of a soldier, servant or resident of the Lord’s Kingdom is loyalty to our Sovereign. I know that. But what do I do? I speak Kingdom-words, but my life shows no Kingdom-works. I have perfect formation, but imperfect foundation. Nothing and no one can fault me on my unceasing prayers, both alone and aloud, in company and without. Sadly, however, my talk only shoots more and more Darts of Treason against my King and His Kingdom. You see, if the Kingdom of God is within me, then why am I living as one in the dark? Why do I claim light with my lips, but my life shows the kingdom of darkness, ignorance, uncertainty and crippling fears? Trust me, this was just one of many treasonable offenses. When I saw myself in this light, I died. Yes, I literally died to all that I was holding on to and saw what an utterly deceived person I had been.

Perhaps, as a Kingdom-dweller, actions of treason do not apply to you, nevertheless, you really need to listen, hear and be convicted in heart and mind, to know whether or not you are aiming, Darts of Treason, against our Lord's Sovereign Rule.

This has been a week that has reminded us of the fact that transgressions are committed by sworn friends, not sworn enemies. We were alerted to the fact that we, as friends, servants, soldiers and co-workers with our Lord, are the ones who betray, slander and commit treason against our King, Lord and Master.

We were guaranteed promised changes in our lives. These include how we now see ourselves in light of all that has been revealed. We know change in the seriousness we now attach to the ways in which we offend our Lord, even in the simplest and smallest of ways. Sensitivity to the Holy Spirit and in the Holy Spirit have received deeper footing and we are not as quick and comfortable to speak God’s Word, if it is not what we are evidencing. There is change in our refusal to live as we did before, lukewarm - neither hot nor cold - and satisfied to be an excuse-making, problems-edifying, mantra-spouting believer, whose salt has lost its savour and whose light has become so dim, none can walk by it and know Jesus’ confirming Hand.

If you have been trusting our Lord implicitly, that He will do as He says, no transgressions against you, will you know from Him.

Thank You Lord for change.